iWait

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder...

is that before or after I suffer? and thoughts start to wander?

Bob said he doesn't want to wait in vain

and neither do I

I guess I shouldn't cry I should lie and deny my feelings inside

I wish I could be who you want me to be

cause I'd be the one you desire

I can only be me the one I'm meant to be

as I grow and aspire

The denial your choosing is internally abusing

I'm not an illusion

Love is not some paranoid delusion

There's been some kind of confusion,

Seewhen I let you in it was to keep you warm

Thought I was safe from harm

till you set off my alarm

Now I sit amidst

my thoughts adrift

and I still can't seem to catch your drift

But, I feel the draft

of your cold shoulder, closed door, nose holder

remote controller of my emotions

And yet, 

I still want you

thru it all

why?

I

tap & tap.. & tap & tap.. & tap & tap

and wait for your call...